im out of my mind.

it's so freaking boring. and i hate this damn weather. i would like to curse at it, use every bad word there is because i hate the rain so much.

so somehow i got sick (again) and i have work in the morning. it's funny because i told my husband who is also sick, that all of us is getting sick but i have a better immune system and i knocked on my piano for superstition so i guess i was knocking on wood.

damn damn damn. but i do have this whole weekend off and im so psyched.

i was going to schedule a shoot but thank goodness it's not gonna happen so i can catch up on some dying sleep.

i feel like making something.

ive been toying with the idea of making latex clothing. it's an idea i've been thinking about for months and i don't want to touch it yet till im fully capable to put my all into it, my all meaning my money.

i play with a lot of crafts and i tend to do nothing with them so....

i tend to make some latex clothes for myself for shoots and see how they go.

i realize why they cost so damn much. so i'll be pretty glad to just own some that ive created myself.

it's been pretty hard trying to figure out a name though. i plan to use that name to create dildo's too. oh i think a lot about crafting. hahaha. any suggestions? i really like vultures. and ravens. but what i plan to do in the latter part doesn't make sense with ravens and vultures. haha.

I've sketched out designs and patterns for them so once i've got the money it'll be ready,set, go.

so im gonna go.

xo.msjesshawk